Archive for the ‘Singer’ Category

Doll’s Life

August 14, 2011

When I was a child
I could not understand
Why I was a doll
Whose sole parent was a man

He taught me and nursed me
Till his health it wore thin
And after two years time
His heart it gave in

The life he had longed for
And with my birth had got
Slipped way so easy
–Tis my companions’ lot

For my very existence
Causes life to wane
I’m guilty since birth
And it drives me insane

My one road to freedom
Is to curse another’s life
Doom them to sorrow
And unending strife

No matter the struggle
I cannot give in
To thrust this on a newborn
Is too great a sin

And the years they drag on
And the miles grow long
I refuse to give in
I’ll just add to my song

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Sorrow

December 7, 2010

Waves wash over me, one after another.  Unstoppable, impossible to resist, they shake me to my core and toss me about like a toy.  Salt stings my eyes, my face.  I cannot stop the droplets any more than I can stop the waves.
At best I can keep my feet and bearing, at worst I am near washed away; my footing eroded by the floods.

Missing Link

December 5, 2010

I think of you as the wind blows cool
and sweet
And I, the fool to think this view is
incomplete
I lie alone beneath the moon
and sigh
I wish for you too late, too soon
without you, I
Am a fool as the winds blow through
so cool and sweet
I think of you beneath the moon
and the dream’s complete

Carried on the night’s breeze…

December 2, 2010

Far Seeker, look at me!
In your eyes this Truth I see:
a restless joy in Life and Love
dancing mirth and swirling doubt
You look at Me and sharing We
Find that we can rise above
all Sorrows that come sniffing about
for, Pack Leader, Truth Seeker
You somehow see the best in me
and also strive eternally
to be the Hand that fits this glove
and puts the Darkness all to rout.

Confusion

June 28, 2010

How can you love me
When I can not love me?
How can you love this self?
Wrapped in your arms–I don’t deserve it!
How dare you love this self?

Deep down and hidden,
Denying affection,
Somewhere just waiting to play
There’s a self there just waiting, hiding in masks still
Why will you wait for that day?

I’m so controlled I can’t feel my feelings
Still I keep trying to say
I truly love you, I just want to touch you
I don’t deserve things this way

You think you’re unworthy
Below my tall tower
Where Secrets are kept hidden away
It’s me who’s unworthy
Of your open meadows,
Your sunny smile brighter than day.

I’m dark and I’m creeping
There are voices kept sleeping
I don’t dare speak what they say
I’m lying, I’m crying,
I’m lost in confusion
When my love is just locked away

Sometimes I can’t feel things,
Dark clouds wrap around them
A cage I can’t blow away.
Trapped so, their bent wings
Can’t carry me to you
Your smile shining brighter each day

How can you love me?
Wrapped in such dark clouds?
Can love burn the numbness away?
Why do you love me, the liar, the secret
The bitter things all hid away?

How can you share them, your
Brightness, your feelings,
I don’t deserve you,
Why feel unworthy?
How can you love me this way?

I’m lost but still seeking
Someday I will tell you
How your brightness pointed the way.
Like the moon through clouds peeking
Your smile soothed and healed me
Made hidden night bright as the day

How can you love me,
When I still can’t love me?
You draw truth from me this way
Warm in your love, I feel wrapped in your smile
Sharing your joy in each day.

I don’t deserve you.
You are so wonderful,
How can you think otherwise?
When I gaze upon you, I feel
You’re bright and you’re open
Sprinkled with flowers
A meadow sometimes clouded by day

How can you love me at times
I can’t love me
How can you love me this way?

Lost in the Flow, or, Perhaps the Wind

June 18, 2010

Days spin by,
fast,
slow.
Nights drag on,
forgotten though
Dreams can lie
of days spun on
and on the fly
they too are Gone.

Lost where your path
drifted away
the rocks moved
by floods they say
And yet the swath
cut through that day
grows clearer still
the things we Say
draw them this way–
Lost and Alone
parted in twain
the nestlings flown
a tree in pain
Yet much to gain
in the branches sway
from sorrows known
grows Hope again

Lost in the Flow
of time
of  you and I
Who knows what may grow
in the muck and grime
where Truth may Lie
and Hope Despair
if one may dare
to try and spy
beyond Reason or rhyme
beyond all Time
the lands ebb and flow

Carried on Dreams and breath
the seeds under foot
we find
blooming behind
the layers of sorrow, and soot
and death.
Brought forth by the light
nourished in blight
perhaps the flowers
show beneath
the dreadful fight
even life has its Powers
Against what have the flowers bid
made War and failed
a broken wreath
shattered hearts hid
lying beneath

Yet those who sinned
new paths might make
and hearts might heal
washed clean by the Lady’s Lake
Or Perhaps the Wind

Lost in the Night Tides

January 20, 2010

Be wary of Dreams.
Trust not Yearnings.

Test carefully the waters of your mind before you swim in them for they may, in fact, belong not to you but to Another.

Like the valley ruled by the Guardian, there are other lands linked to dreams.  Some are kindly and some are. . . less so.
There are Seas to drown all Dreamers.

Most such seas are cold and forbidding in aspect, they drown those who dare their waters simply to prevent the attempted intrusion.  They do not wish to allow outsiders within their waves.
These oceans are deadly, but they will not go out of their way to snare one who Wanders.
The gloomy seas do not seek to lure in the unwary.  They harm only those who intrude.

It is their inviting kinfolk one should fear, bedecked in sparkling tides and dancing on glistening strands.

Be wary of dreams, but do not fear them.  Even the roughest sea may have smooth sailing, and the wildest wave can bring the greatest fortune.
Trust not yearnings, but do listen to them.  The song of the heart is not unlike the sea’s secret words.
Treat them properly and they might yield the greatest treasure of all.